It’s time
4 months ago
8/30/2006
No nekkidness today.
About a year ago a friend of mine sent me a link to a website of her former neighbor/friend http://www2.caringbridge.org/il/vickip/ . She explained how her friend was going through a tough time, she was in her 7th month of her second pregnancy when she was diagnosed with Colon Cancer. Almost reluctantly I clicked on the link, afraid of what I might find. Afraid that someone else's plight may be too intrusive on my life. Lord knows I had enough plight of my own. But I clicked and I read and ever since that moment this woman and her family have been in my heart. The baby was taken early so she could start treatment and although the baby survived and is actually doing well, the mother's fight against cancer ended yesterday. Left behind are a husband and two little girls, 3 and 1. Life is so goddamn unfair isn't it?
I think about my life and the things I've been through, the pity I've often felt for myself - I'm ashamed. When you strip away all that we are, all that we've been, all that we may become, what is left? We build walls to protect ourselves, we tell lies to avoid truth, we run away to avoid standing still, we search for ways to survive. And still we are the same fallible human beings. No matter how many times we jump off cliffs and manage to survive, we must face the reality that somewhere, life will lose to death. It's a battle we often ignore because we all know that ignorance is bliss right? And then one day every truth you've ever avoided manages to stare you in the eyes every time you look in the mirror and it's then that you realize, there is no avoiding the inevitable.
I've been so wrapped up in my work and my life lately that I've failed to make my rounds to all the blogs I love and I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry that I can never seem to remember how precious life is until someone else's tragedy lands squarely in front of me, reminding me how lucky I am. I am bruised, I have fallen and gotten up more times than I care to remember, but I am alive. I have chances to right the wrongs, chances to create new memories to overshadow the bad ones, chances to love the people I've hated, chances to choose honesty over lies, chances to become something other than I am right now - something better. We let so many chances pass us by and then before we know what has happened, there are no more chances.
I encourage you to click on that link above. Read the story, feel that family's pain, and make your life less about chance and more about choice.
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I have seen much of this pain in my own life..but you know what all of us can learn..live for today.
We just never know what our own time lines are in life..live for today:)
You have a big heart Net.
Thank you for sharing~
i just cannot bear any more right now.
but thank you for the post and link.
take care dear heart.
My bosses' husband died of colon cancer. He was 45. My grandmother - of bone cancer.
We are all blessed with life.
When it is time to go, we have no choice, do we?
What we choose to do with our lives in between birth and death is indeed a miracle waiting to happen.
Let's embrace the good with the bad. Maybe we can try not to let the bad run us down?
Easier said than done, I know...
Have a lovely weekend x
I see you,
JJ
On a completely different subject and separate note, I would love your comments on my 8/28 post - I always love what you have to say!
I'm still computerless at home so cannot read blogs as often as I'd like. I miss coming here and reading your profound words...
I think that you do see life for all that it's worth and cherish the moments that you have, large and small. We all have our moments of forgetfulness where we don't just count our blessings, but fully appreciate them. One of mine is finding you and all that you share.
I totally understand too about being sooo busy to check on blogs.. no worries chica! still love ya nd soo been there too.
been thinking about you and your new little one... have a great weekend with your hubby alice and yourself.. :)
life is short, so live