10/06/2006

Comfortable Slippers

This post is dedicated to dear Caterpillar's friend. Although he is a stranger to me, the pain he is going through is familiar. It's as familiar as my favorite pair of slippers, the ones with the cracked sole, the faded velvet, the tiny tear around the edge that makes my left foot slip out the side as I walk just...so. As unattractive as those slippers are I cannot seem to let them go. Sometimes pain becomes like that, an old slipper that fits just right. We convince ourselves that it's comfortable enough to keep because letting it go means breaking in another life, more moments, more memories - that may or may not fit as well as what we're wearing right now. But as hard as we try to keep what is, sometimes what we once thought was 'comfortable enough' becomes what causes the blister to form on the back of our heel. We begin to limp and eventually we're caught off balance and if we're lucky someone is there to catch us before we fall into a place where no arms could reach.

One day you'll go to put those old slippers on and you'll realize, they really don't fit at all. You'll pick them up, turn them in your hands as you reminisce about how they once seemed to be the only thing you could stand to wear. But then, you'll see all the cracks in the foundation you've walked on and decide, it's time for a new pair. It may be awhile before you throw them out, they may sit at the back of your closet buried beneath the new things you've tried to replace them with but just as Spring always promises to bring new life, they will make their way back to the top of the pile just in time to make Friday's garbage pick-up. As you toss them out in the back alley trash can a small pang of 'what may have been' will cause you to hesitate. But you'll glance down at your feet and notice how the limp has gone and you'll let them go. You'll close the lid and you'll walk away and next Friday when garbage pick-up rolls around again, you'll be waiting with another pair of 'old sneakers' that no longer fit you.

Empty your closet dear Caterpillar's friend and try on a new pair of shoes.

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

7 Comments:

  1. lash505 said...
    Another kick ass post. Thanks
    Gwen said...
    I love new slippers! When you put them on you realize how little support you were actually getting from those old raggedy thangs~
    WDKY said...
    I just love your posts sometimes... well, always, but sometimes even more so.
    Steve said...
    "grow up" another words...

    Mature advice, indeed.

    Isn't maturity about seeing the difference between reality and fantasy, after all?

    Though sometimes,

    I can find the real of the illusion...

    and see the truth in appearances.
    e.e. said...
    A completely fabulous post, and I am also loving this new song too.
    You have articulated a lot of what I have been going through lately. Sometimes I keep turning those old slippers over and over and over again and can't seem to let them go, and I get stuck.
    Thank god for angels that help us find the trash can...
    Ashley said...
    Wow. Awesome post.
    Yu really are insightful person.
    But great advice. I think many of us go through that stage where we can't seem to see oursevles letting go, but when we do, it's like we've never been happier.
    Caterpillar said...
    Oh NWC, this is so so so beautiful, and so perfect for him! And I'm only so sorry that I've been so busy and just now saw it!

    Thank you so much for this - I knew you would understand what he's going through, and you always seem to have the perfect words of wisdom to make sense of things. You're so wonderful!!! :)

    Have a wonderful weekend!!!

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